I’m just really scared that this thing is actually going to be the thing that kills me… And I’m scared that I have less time than I thought. I’m scared that I won’t be able to achieve my dreams. I used to think about dying all the time, and I still do occasionally although I would never do anything, but now it all scares me. I’m scared that instead of thinking about dying, it might actually happen now.

My life has turned into a mess of tests and doctors appointments

I cried so hard during the fault in our stars not only because it’s sad, but because I found myself kind of relating to it all because of all the tests I’m doing and that scared the hell out of me.

My anxiety has been extremely high lately…

I feel like absolute shit.

Anonymous asked:
Hey there, I know all of this is scary as hell but always have hope that no matter what things will work out okay. I hope everything works out and know that God is looking out for you. Best wishes! Love you!

Thank you. I actually got really lucky. I found out Thursday because I got in a car wreck that morning and went to the hospital to see if I had whiplash. It is standard to do a CT scan and thats when they found it so then I did an MRI and now I have to do more tests so we can really find out what it is. But I haven’t had any symptoms. No seizures or headaches. Nothing. No family history or medical problems. If I hadn’t have been in that wreck and gone to the hospital which was my call, I would have never known until maybe in the future if it effected me. It’s still really scary and I’m still stressed out because I know we don’t have the money for this shit.

So I might have a brain tumor and I’m really scared. I don’t know how we would pay for the surgery or how it would go and if it is a tumor it could be cancerous and I just found out Thursday and I’m just really scared.

My senior quote is: “Did everyone see that? Because I will not be doing it again.” - Jack Sparrow

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It’s already midnight….

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